Dominating Thoughts and Achieving

12 Mar

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Two weeks ago, a forceful crisis of confidence took hold and set me back about six weeks in terms of my writing. I spent a sorry week restructuring my story, reworking my scenes, changing the plot direction and the fundamental motivations of my characters. As I worked frantically to resolve the issues that arose in my manuscript, I began to seriously doubt that my story had any other value beyond being a story that I felt compelled to write and that I wanted to read as a reader. Failure seeped into my thoughts and I became so anxious at the thought that perhaps I had dedicated so much of my time and efforts over the past year to something that may turn out to be an unworkable disaster.

When the fear peaked to this advanced state of realization that I may have wasted so much time on something so speculative, I clung tightly to a quote by Napoleon Hill – ”You are but the sum of your dominating or most prominent thoughts.”  It’s a pretty famous quote from his book ‘The Law of Success in Sixteen Lessons’ published in 1928. The theory is similar to the law of attraction and positive thinking, but no quote on this topic has held more resonance for me than Napoleon Hill’s.

Every morning when I got up – daunted by the writing task at hand for the day – I repeated this quote over and over in my mind. If I allowed myself to dwell on the fear that my manuscript to date was so flawed that it was beyond saving, I would descend into panic and desolation. I had to be convinced that my manuscript was save-able, even as the further I went into the editing, the worse the structural problems seemed to get.  The knock-on effect resulting from the alteration of a simple piece of dialogue or the tweaking of one action or response almost toppled me into the sea of self-doubt.

I developed two personalities over these two weeks. One personality kept telling me that I would complete my novel, that it would all work out in the end, that I was right to dedicate serious time and effort into the project and that it would not all be the biggest mistake I ever made. The other personality told me I would regret wasting the past fourteen months, that I had wrongly steered myself into a perilous financial situation because of my commitment to the project and that I was naive to think I could call myself an aspiring novelist, never mind that anyone might read what I wrote.

Napoleon Hill kept me going, solidified a steely determination within me so as not to allow the negative thoughts dominate my thinking. I completed all the restructuring and I’m now well on my way to completing a much better story all round (for now anyway), streets ahead of where it was five weeks ago. Strangely, something innocuous also happened around the same time to assure me I kept focused on the positive thoughts. I developed an irrational fear that I was going to wake up one morning to find a spider on my pillow as I lay in bed. And you guessed it, three weeks later I woke up to find a spider on my pillow, a bit unsure as to why he was there.

I’m sticking with Napoleon.

NMG.C

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3 Responses to “Dominating Thoughts and Achieving”

  1. The Philosophunculist March 12, 2013 at 9:36 pm #

    Any big creative project is going to have times of major doubt. I just started writing a book about two months ago and I have different feelings about it every day. Just gotta keep going.

    • What's it All About and Other Stories March 13, 2013 at 9:38 am #

      Just gotta keep going is right! We’ll get there if we stay focused and solider through the doubts with the confidence that the project evolves as we work through it! It’s just frightening when you realise you’ve gone down the wrong road and have to scramble to retrace your steps and put it all right! Best of luck!

  2. Jilanne Hoffmann March 17, 2013 at 6:01 pm #

    I am reminded of an observation made by a writer looking at the desk of a much more famous writer. The unknown writer saw a pile of thick manuscripts lying on the famous writers desk and asked if the famous writer was working on a new novel. The famous writer said that those were various versions of a new short story. So I think writers just need to accept the process for what it is and keep moving forward. Stay positive and focused. Surround yourself with people who help you move forward, not those who may hold you back.

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